Sorry about the delay

OK, so I haven’t been good at writing frequently and this blog has completely gone in a different direction than initially planned.  But hey, it’s my blog and it will go where I want it to :p

So, my life has been sort of a roller coaster the last few days.  But I can definitely say that I have learned some things about myself lately.  My plan of moving out to CA to be with the woman that I love has ran into a slight problem at the moment.  Instead of just selling a house to worry about, I now have that and getting approval from work to leave as well.  I did have approval before, but due to some things happening at work it has been put on hold and will be reconsidered in June.  Now, I really didn’t plan on moving before June anyway but now there is no guarantee I will get approval at all.  But I am still going to stick to my plan….have my house on the market this spring and if it sells then I will just find a place here to rent.  I guess it is not as bad as it could be, I mean at least I do have a job in these troubling times.

Also, my relationship took a turn as well….not in a bad way, but different.  The honeymoon part is over and that is taking some getting used to.  We don’t talk as much as we used to and that has caused a few problems.  We were really spoiled before when we could talk all the time and it has been tough going from that to a lot less.  My girlfriend is very busy at work and doesn’t have as much time as she once did.  At first, it really bothered me and made me worried that I did something wrong (past relationships contribute to that).  She then explained that this is a busy time for her and it is not that she doesn’t want to talk, she just doesn’t have time.  I can understand that and it got me thinking.  I worry a lot when I don’t know what is going on (past relationships) and I have been a little selfish.  I guess I needed reassurance to know that things were ok, even when I know deep down how much she loves me.  After doing some thinking about all of this, I determined that I just need to enjoy the time I do get with her and not worry so DAMN much!  We both know how we feel about each other and neither of us are going anywhere (ok I want to go out to her, but….yeah you know what I mean).  They say absence makes the heart grow fonder, I would definitely agree.

Well, this was what was on my mind today….hopefully the next post will be back on track with what this blog was intending (not that I don’t like writing about you my love).  And to my girl….I love you lots

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