I’m back….

So I moved to California about 3 weeks ago and am loving it.  I am still trying to get organized, coming from a 4 bedroom house to a 2 bedroom apartment takes some adjustment.  But in all I couldn’t be happier about my decision to move out here.

In my last blog I had mentioned that there were some things that I wanted to write about when I had time.  Well, I have some time.  I don’t think that I have much of an audience, but I hope that what I write reaches someone in particular.

When I first started this blog my life was completely different than it is now.  I had a friend that lived out here in CA which turned into much more.  We fell in love and had intentions of being together one day.  Since that time many things changed, but I was still determined to get to CA and if she was still around we would see where we stood.  Earlier this year I found that she is not who she claimed to be, not even close.  And to top it off I haven’t talked to her in almost 6 months.

The situation is weird.  I feel like I lost my best friend, she is just gone.  I have no way of getting in touch with her and that hurts.  She hurt me, she hurt me real bad especially after I found out the truth.  I can’t grasp my head around why someone would do what she did to me.  Part of me wants to hate her for what she did, but I don’t hate her at all.  She helped motivate me to move to CA, which is what I always wanted.  Her method of motivation was crappy but it worked.  She was also the one that helped me battle my depression.  So in some ways, the good things she did outweigh the bad.

I am not going to bash her or expose her on here.  She knows what she did and is the one that has to live with that.  I just want her to know that I miss her as a friend and wish things would have been different. If she ever reads this, you know how to get in touch with me….I hope she does.

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